Out of the Closet

Day two of dieta liquida and I'm doing good. My only temptation was the fresh salsa/pico I made for my family (the smell is intoxicating). Alas, I refused it.

Today, I told the truth to my husband about how I truly live my life. I told him I was a closet eater. Well, that isn't entirely true. I am a closet eater, kitchen eater, bathroom eater, in my car on the way from the grocery store eater, eating while cooking eater, batter eater, sneaking around my husband and kids eater...basically, given the opportunity and something I wanted - it was consumed. I would make excuses to myself that I didn't want my kids to eat unhealthy things, so I would consume it for them. How thoughtful of me, right? In all honestly, if I had only eaten what my family actually saw me consume, I wouldn't be typing this right now. I wouldn't weigh 331 pounds. Then again, if I think about it, I've always been a closet eater. How pathetic is that?

I had put on my previous post a list of goals for myself; but, I missed the most important goal of all:
STOP CLOSET EATING!

I'm not going to say I won't ever eat chocolate again, even though my body doesn't tolerate it well.
I'm not going to say I won't ever have a beer again - simply because nothing taste better on a hot summer day than a beer.
I'm not going to "give up" anything.
I am going to be more aware of what I am eating, when I am eating, and more importantly for me - where I am eating.