Faux Bypass

This evening I was chatting with my hubster about my frustration with myself and my fear of dying from being obese. He said I have to just put myself first. I have to do what I need to do to get it done. Then, we talked about the idea of a gastric bypass. I am completely against it. I got myself into this. I have to get myself out. Also, I don't want to put my body through another surgery.

So, here is what I thought of. People who go to have a gastric bypass go on a liquid diet for two weeks leading up to the surgery. Then, they go on a diet of around 500 calories. Okay. This would be hard, but I am pretty desperate right now. I have no weight loss goals right now. I'm just kind of floating out here in my own personal hell with no goals or plans to correct it.

This, I will start tomorrow. The major thing to do is to shrink the stomach. When that happens, it makes dieting so much easier. And, it doesn't take long to shrink the stomach. I've done it before, but it has been so many years ago.

The focus will be one day at a time...one hour at a time.

I have a goal of what I want to do for myself for the next two weeks. Clear liquids only for the next two weeks. Done.

Now, I need to have a weight loss goal for myself. Not a crazy 170 pound weight loss that I need to do, but a more realistic goal that I can actually reach.

I know the first week of weight loss is primarily dumping and water loss. I am not dumb enough to think I am actually achieving something the first week in regards to fat loss.

Most people will tell you if you lose 10% of your body weight you will reduce your health risks significantly. Having a weight loss goal of 10% would be 34 pounds for me. That sounds like a lot for me and I am fairly certain I would talk myself out of it. Therefore, I am going to go for an initial goal of 5% of my body weight, first - that makes my initial goal 17 pounds. It sounds doable. No, wait, it is doable.

I'm not waiting for Monday. I start tomorrow. I'll write about my thoughts, struggles and focus daily.