Weighting for the Pain

Losing weight is hard enough with:

• People telling you how they lost weight.
• People telling you how you should lose weight.
• People telling you that it is just calories in vs. calories out. (No shit, Sherlock!)
• People trying to sell you the thing that will definitely work for you.
• People monitoring everything you put in your mouth.
• People telling you that you should just walk more or take the stairs.

So, when I lose weight, even just a little, my body starts to hurt. Aches, yes. Pains, yes. Headaches, eh, sometimes. I can always start to see it first in my face and feel a difference in my waist and ring finger before anything else. But, there are times I wonder:

• Is my body trying to hold onto the fat?
• Have I been so fat for so long that my body feels like I am trying to get rid of a part of it?
• Am I missing so nutritional part that is causing this pain in my ribs and back?
• Should I be exercising and stretching more? (Probably.)
• Wouldn't it be easier just to eat that bagel or pastry and avoid the pain of losing weight?

Yes. Not to eating it, but yes, it would be easier. At this point, I am not choosing easy. But, I have to say, choosing to:

• Follow this diet plan isn't too hard.
• Drink more water isn't too hard.
• Changing to tea instead of constant coffee isn't too hard. (Okay, a little.)

Thinking about myself differently is one of the hardest parts. Because weight loss is just that. You have to look at yourself differently. You have to care about yourself and how your health has to matter...you have to matter. People have said that overweight people use that as a shield. Yeah, maybe, but I want to strip this shield away because I am strong enough to handle anything that is thrown at me right about now.